An empty chair

Pisces season was draining this year; it was physically, mentally and emotionally exhausting for me. There were times that I felt such a heaviness over me I couldn’t breathe.

Shame was my companion for most of it. I have been asked to put my arm around her and tell her that it will be okay. I can no longer hide her in the shadows in hopes that she will remain silent. Incorporation of what she represents is vital to my continued growth so even it if feels “bad” I am allowing her space to be.

For the Vernal Equinox I took a journey into Shame’s energy. She led me to the apartment complex where I grew up. Below the apartment rooms were garages. I saw her there, between garages, screaming at a chair that was empty. She was yelling, “You Never Loved Me!” among other angry obscenities. I could feel her pain- it hurt.

As I watched this scene unfold I realized that I was simply yelling at an empty chair. Sure, at any given time there could have been any number of people sitting in that chair fully deserving my wrath, but those people no longer exist in my life and I was left just yelling at the emptiness of what was.

This profound vision links to a deeper message. I have spent many, many years of my life- unconsciously screaming at that empty chair. Continuously reminding myself that I am Unloved. The echoes of this energy has drained me on a deep level and has continued to scar me long after the damage of those people who sat in that chair fully deserving of my anger have passed on.

So, today at the New Moon, I set my intention to relieve my duty in guarding and harassing that chair. I allow myself to release the pain that has kept me stuck in the constant reminder of my “lack” and I choose to walk away- to reallocate the energy spent in remembering the chair to endeavors that feed and fuel my soul.

It is time to allow the fire of Aries season to cleanse us- to release us from the patterns we carry that are no longer serving us.

Saturn will remain in Pisces for 3 years. During this time, the planet of restriction and limitation, will be assisting us in the deep dive into our own dark places so we may be renewed with remembered wisdom.

Embrace the path and let go of all your empty chairs.

It was just an empty chair
Sitting there
I was yelling at the space it held
Echoing
“You never loved me!”

Any number of men
Could have been sitting there
But it was empty
And I was just trapped by time
Screaming obscenities
To air

sending love

4/29/22- Pluto retrograde

Pluto is the planet of transformation, death & rebirth. It symbolizes how we experience power, sex, death, renewal, rebirth and hidden or subconscious forces. Pluto is brutal and unrivaled in his ability to break down structures leading to true transformation.

Pluto retrograde can deliver us to and from the brink of our subconscious- asking us to look into our shadows. During this time, we are given an opportunity to dive below the surface and not only look at our psychic, subconscious materials, but accept them as a welcomed part of our wholistic nature.

4/12/22- Jupiter conjunct Neptune, Sun sextile Saturn

This is a time to buckle down and turn the focus inwardly. Jupiter and Neptune are in Pisces allowing for an expanded view of higher minded ideals and philosophies. This strong intuitive energy coupled with Aries Sun sextile Saturn in Aquarius, you may find that complex concepts begin to “feel” their way into being; that you can understand spiritual concepts on a deeper and more profound level. This is a great time to journey to your guides- next steps in your life are being laid at your feet… hard work is the only way- ritual and dedication will provide the groundwork you need at this time. Do not take the easy road- it will not lead you where you wish to go… instead, turn your attention inwardly and ask yourself the hard questions.. answers are flowing now for you- you need only open your heart center to receive….

Jupiter conjunct Neptune– This transit happens every 13 years- and hasn’t occurred in the sign of Pisces since 1856…

This is an auspicious time for spiritual development. Jupiter is the planet of expansion and while in this positive alignment with Neptune, broad concepts and abstract ideas can be more easier understood and applied. Intuition will be high and dreams may be vivid. Caution in business dealings is advised as you perspective may be too broad leading you to potentially miss important details.

Sun sextile Saturn– themes of patience and perseverance are highlighted during this transit. This is an excellent time to reach for your goals and complete those serious or difficult tasks. This is a great time to stand up and be recognized by authority figures by focusing on hard work and steady follow through.

Tarot Message- March 2022

Seven of Swords reversed

It is time to put those old thoughts away. The truth is flowing within the cracks of your defenses- it is time to see the truth.

Don’t fear what emerges for you this month. Embrace the facts without judgement. Remember that the Universe is always pushing you to peel away the “old” so that you can receive the new energy meant to align with your current vibration.

The facade of old paradigms and cycles will begin to fade as you step into clearer vision of the NOW. It is time to let go of any limiting factors- this could be thoughts, emotions, relationships… the truth is illuminated this month and you may be forced to make decisions about what to keep and what to release.

Remember- *I am Safe* *I am Grateful* *I am Grounded* *I trust my Path*…. you are meant to be here- you are meant to see beyond the surface; anything hidden will be made visible now. Plot your course and make your changes.

2/1- New Moon in Aquarius

The New Moon is a time of rebirth, a time when we are given a chance to start fresh.

With the New Moon in the progressive, intelligent sign of Aquarius, this is a great time to use out of the box thinking to solve an issue, blockage or to set an intention for something new and hopeful to enter into your life.

Aquarius is an air sign, so this is a really good time to give the emotions a break by working towards a more objective outlook. We can use this time to recognize that some level of detachment and distancing from habits and attachments to the past will help us see the patterns and break away from them.