An empty chair

Pisces season was draining this year; it was physically, mentally and emotionally exhausting for me. There were times that I felt such a heaviness over me I couldn’t breathe.

Shame was my companion for most of it. I have been asked to put my arm around her and tell her that it will be okay. I can no longer hide her in the shadows in hopes that she will remain silent. Incorporation of what she represents is vital to my continued growth so even it if feels “bad” I am allowing her space to be.

For the Vernal Equinox I took a journey into Shame’s energy. She led me to the apartment complex where I grew up. Below the apartment rooms were garages. I saw her there, between garages, screaming at a chair that was empty. She was yelling, “You Never Loved Me!” among other angry obscenities. I could feel her pain- it hurt.

As I watched this scene unfold I realized that I was simply yelling at an empty chair. Sure, at any given time there could have been any number of people sitting in that chair fully deserving my wrath, but those people no longer exist in my life and I was left just yelling at the emptiness of what was.

This profound vision links to a deeper message. I have spent many, many years of my life- unconsciously screaming at that empty chair. Continuously reminding myself that I am Unloved. The echoes of this energy has drained me on a deep level and has continued to scar me long after the damage of those people who sat in that chair fully deserving of my anger have passed on.

So, today at the New Moon, I set my intention to relieve my duty in guarding and harassing that chair. I allow myself to release the pain that has kept me stuck in the constant reminder of my “lack” and I choose to walk away- to reallocate the energy spent in remembering the chair to endeavors that feed and fuel my soul.

It is time to allow the fire of Aries season to cleanse us- to release us from the patterns we carry that are no longer serving us.

Saturn will remain in Pisces for 3 years. During this time, the planet of restriction and limitation, will be assisting us in the deep dive into our own dark places so we may be renewed with remembered wisdom.

Embrace the path and let go of all your empty chairs.

It was just an empty chair
Sitting there
I was yelling at the space it held
Echoing
“You never loved me!”

Any number of men
Could have been sitting there
But it was empty
And I was just trapped by time
Screaming obscenities
To air

sending love

1/21/23 NEW MOON in Aquarius

The New Moon is a time of rebirth, a time when we are given a chance to start fresh.

With the New Moon in the progressive, intelligent sign of Aquarius, this is a great time to use out of the box thinking to solve an issue, blockage or to set an intention for something new and hopeful to enter into your life.

Aquarius is an air sign, so this is a really good time to give the emotions a break by working towards a more objective outlook. We can use this time to recognize that some level of detachment and distancing from habits and attachments to the past will help us see the patterns and break away from them.

New Moon in Pisces ♓️ : March 13th

During the New Moon in Pisces, the last sign in the zodiac, we are reminded to release, let go and prepare for new beginnings with the impending Spring/Vernal Equinox.

This new moon is especially powerful as there is a stellium of planets in Pisces on this day (Sun, Moon, Venus and Neptune). These planets are all within degrees of each other and provide a wonderful backdrop for all things related to Pisces including spirituality, creativity, emotional release, hopes, dreams and positive affirmation.

This new moon will initiate a new cycle of healing, intuition, divine love, and compassion. It is time to release suffering and helplessness, to embrace sensitivity and creativity- let your imagination soar without judgment.

New Moon in Aquarius- February 11th

New Moons are always a time of new beginnings, but this particular new moon will have some very profound significance. The New Moon joins a massive stellium of planets already in Aquarius- the Sun, Venus, Mercury, Jupiter & Saturn in the 12 house of karma, undoing and the unconscious.

Uranus in Taurus will also be getting ready to square Saturn which may create some massive tension and possibly even send some shockwaves into the ether. This new moon may bring changes that have been a long time coming- accept whatever presents itself for you; understand that whatever is taken, removed or altered will be for your highest and best good.

Ground your energy in faith and gratitude and ride the wave of whatever energy comes your way. Great transformation is possible today.