Ego’s black hole

When we fall powerfully enough into our own ego; and the ego gets its attention from latching into emotions of fear, pain, anger- we become like a black hole that pulls, in essence ripping a hole into, the energy around us- and pulling us into more darkness.

People have the effect of a black hole by falling into their ego- by embracing their feelings, to such and extent that they pull everyone around them into this same void.

This is the law of attraction. When you are near energy uncontrollable and no defenses are up – we are susceptible to experiencing these emotions, along with that person.

When you lose the battle with the ego and give it attention by focusing on the emotion it’s carrying for you- it’s important to maintain your practice of mindfulness. It is through the consistent reminder of the NOW that we can calm the storm and regain balance. Give yourself gratitude for seeing the truth of what you were doing and refocus on what makes your heart sing.

With regards to having a person in your life who creates disruptive energy on a deep or regular basis- it’s important to set up boundaries for yourself. Fortify your energy field through deep ritual and call on Archangel energy when you need to clear and clean your space. You need to remember that they are experiencing ego betrayal and that their soul right now is falling into a dark black hole… give them compassion- but keep their darkness theirs; do not allow it to become yours.

Tarot message- release and forgive 🌱

Transition reversed (death) crossed by Knight of Wands

Now is the time for inner fears to be resolved and released. The of energy of both 10/10 and upcoming full moon usher in a release of the past and embrace of what is new for us on our journey. Tens symbolize transition from what has been to what is to come. Think on what you need to let go, connect with those emotions that no longer apply to your life- accept them and free them from your inner being. This is a deep day that involves connecting with, accepting and finally releasing deep wounds so that a more complete healing can take place. These wounds may involve childhood traumas or deep rooted relationship issues. As you go through today, look on yourself with loving kindness and then look on those who have caused pain with the same. Forgiveness is the key for today…. allow this powerful energy of completion and the full moon to help you move forward.

A prayer of forgiveness

May all emotions stored within me of a lower vibration be released and transmuted for highest and best good

May all emotions of fear anxiety and pain be released and replaced with compassion loving kindness and forgiveness

May clarity replace darkness and light protect me from fear

I call on my higher self guides and angels to help me clear my energy of anger and fear so that I may bask in the white light of forgiveness and peace

It’s time to step into yourself 🌟

Materialism (devil) crossed by Queen of Swords

It is time to put down those things that are no longer working for you and trust your inner knowing. The transition of energy is moving you from where you were to where you need to be to serve in your highest capacity. Stop doubting yourself and allow your heart to release from those things that are keeping you stuck… thoughts, emotions, people…. it is time to embrace your voice, clear that throat chakra and step into the fullness that is you! The time is now….

Abuse survivors and the need to control

Many common themes run through the lives of those who have suffered trauma in early childhood. Feelings of being out of control- issues in fact with control itself, are very common. Many survivors “pretend” they are stronger, more assertive and more in control than they actually feel… this mask gives a false sense of safety and security. Because it’s a facade, the pain of what happened is exacerbated by the mask that needs to be worn all the time. It’s an exhausting circle of hide and seek with the self and others.

Some people decide to grasp control through extensive discipline and reproach. Limiting of nutrients and sustenance through diet and exercise is a common way that unresolved issues with control manifest. ….Anorexia, bulimia, cutting, bruising…. all coping mechanisms meant to give this false sense of safety.

While the root of the issue with control is the silence that abuse engenders; the very idea of “speaking up” is difficult for some; especially if this method was tried before but the message fell on deaf ears.

Parents and loved ones don’t always deny an abuse story because they don’t believe it- the denial comes from their own sense of guilt and shame from being the person who “allowed it to happen”.

Denial and/or the lack of support-full understanding from those close create the feeling of a deficit within the abused person which leads to the desire to “replicate and change” the outcome of the abuse and subsequent reactions to the abuse by replaying it in present day situations with the hope that they are finally “good enough” to attain a different result. This is a self defeating exercise.

Trying to change a toxic situation into a positive one only fuels and triggers the toxicity already present. To change the situation, one must move from it.

Healing from trauma is a process that is constantly spiraling back to itself. We reach new levels of understanding as we revisit the pain to gain the extra wisdom hidden within.

We can only reach others as deeply as we reach ourselves. Survivors are the deepest healers because they have had to reach deep within themselves, to the darkest spots; soothing them with loving kindness, compassion, joy and freedom (the four elements of love).

~acknowledge, accept, release, repeat~

If you are a survivor looking for more, looking for a place of safety within yourself, looking for a divine purpose…. find your breathe… silence your mind… and allow the universe to reside inside.

With love
Erin