The heavy energy of change

This heavy energy of change just sits in the air around us.  It is deafening and deep.   It calls from within the heart, as she begs for relief, for a salve that might lighten the load; but where is the clarity that would turn darkness into light? Where is the understanding that may free us from this deep despair? Fear sits upon the floor of this wreckage, and wrings her hands.  Even fear knows this darkness is too deep, even fear is fearful of the grief that lingers so within the folds of this energy consciousness we are enduring now.

My being is my kingdom; my divine mind the throne upon which I sit.  Mindfulness helps me to remember the power of my own intuition and higher consciousness; though today, my heart ’s cries silence even my inner knowing- clouds of pain send forth cold and bitter rain.  I am left here, to endure, to observe, to try to make some sense of the despair that covers my body and spirit in darkness and shadow.

Though now, I am left to wonder how long we are given to acclimate this new heaviness, which upon us now has descended; for within the acceptance of the present we may just yet find freedom from the bondage of it.

Many times, we must die to a new way; change requires it as payment from  us.  This load, this trial, this change we are now well within, is a death call.  We must release from the old; loose our grip upon what we knew, what was comfortable, what brought joy so that we can allow it space to peacefully return to energy’s embrace.  

I am lost to the difficulty of it; my entire being is crying in pain and loss…. I will not submit my heart to this; though ego’s firm stance will not be suffered by the wind of the storm that is brewing just off the coast of our consciousness and what ego demands, we cannot manifest now.  What was, is no longer.  We must rise up from the depths of our loss to embrace the new, the beginning, the alpha… and as the circle closes upon the old, we must let it go with gratitude and love instead of fear and pain.  Oh, would that it was so easy!

Now, as ego, as this dying construct, starts to see death’s face upon the horizon, I am left here, with the trauma of letting go.  Lacking courage, i summon my guides to help me meet this new day with an open heart.  I ask for peace so that I may build my funeral pyre to the heavens as tribute to the past and gratitude for what it has taught me.  My heart, so deafened by the sound of dawn’s bells ringing in the unknown, may just yet remember that compassion also dwells within the divine heart and she may take refuge within that embrace.  I turn to face the shadows of these storm clouds with faith, even if my poor heart flutters and fear lies prostrate upon the floor, for acceptance affords the soul protection  from the death of all things.


On this weekend of powerful energy

When, as children, our self worth becomes based upon external accomplishment we learn to fear accomplishment itself; we learn to either run away from the fear of failure or dive into spectacular success; both to the detriment of the moment, to the detriment of our sanity and balance.  We come to equate our “specialness” with things outside our selves; setting up the duality of “emptiness” vs “fullness”. Our Inner Child comes to believe that we are not special in and of ourselves, but only measured by some external force.  

Now is the time to embrace the truth, that we are enough, just by being here right now; that the measure of a person is based upon their ability to see the fullness of the picture within- the light and dark- as co-existing duality, as spinning force.  The measure of a being is their connection to the source of light available to us all… consciousness is eternally now… The measure of a being is in their ability to see life on a micro and macro basis; seeing that each wave vibrates and reverberates through us all upon this divine web; all of us inter-connectedly riding the soft touch of eternity.

On this weekend of powerful energy, I wish us hope…  the flame of divine justice, the spirit of divine love, the strength of divine mind.  

Healing involves a journey into the depths of our soul; feeling the richness of suffering and joy.  Releasing each into the wind to be reborn again.  Deep pain flows, dark and deep from within the caverns of our collective consciousness- dramatically release with gratitude; for having touched the fire of pain, we gather to us the salve of compassion.

As the rain falls,  as I write this, my spirit- for the first time in weeks- breathes deep into the heart of things and dances again with the thunder as cool water soothes and cleanses my worried heart.

Tarot message for July

King of Pentacles reversed: 2020 continues to not disappoint. The time for releasing and letting go is here… we have gone within, we have done the work, we have faced the shadows- what more, you might ask, is the universe asking from us? Through the summer we will be shedding layers of “old” as we step into the new. We may be asked to review one sided relationships- both in love and business- and- even more so- how we are viewing our own patterns of withholding from ourselves and from those we love. It is time to break free from the shadows that have held us trapped for so long. Keep going, the light is returning and things will get easier… these are some final steps in our path forward into this new energy… release! It is time.

Tarot message- a new day

Page of Cups

Time to accept that the changes you have been experiencing are for your highest good. New blessings are with you now as you move forward; releasing the old, stuck energy to embrace what is yours now. Do not allow your fear to hold you stuck on a path that is no longer yours. Release and let go! You are ready to emerge from this very potent cocoon you have been healing within…time to see a new way forward. Opportunity is yours now- changes have taken place and you are ready to embrace the new…

Full moon tarot message

Five of swords reversed

On this full moon- we are being called to look honestly at our mindset, thought patterns and words we use to communicate to both ourselves and others. During this time of great karmic clearing it is necessary to see the truth of a situation instead of what we were told to believe or what we hope to be true. It is time to put down the old patterns and constructs so that we may embrace a more clear and full picture of why we are here, of our true purpose during this human experience and how we can help create a more peaceful life both within and without. It’s time to let go and embrace what is- with love and compassion; with forgiveness and kindness. Allow today’s full moon to help lighten your load, uplift your heart and brighten your way forward-